haha today late for uni again. got there at about 10 past 12. but the class was changed. enter a class where they having music. duh. then went com lab do some stuff till 1pm then know where the new class is. went to attend n we had to work in grp for assignment 1. Warwick was alone, Xin wasnt here for class today. neither the new fren, Hassa, I met ytd. anyway, Warwick was alone n he's feeling shit-ty n miserable. initially I was with the other food tech girls in a grp. but then after a day or rather half day of thought, decide to join Warwick's grp. there's Xin n another girl i dunu. had never work with any of them before, not sure how it's gona be like. anyway just for 3 weeks only. hopefully the food tech girls wont mind. besides had always been working with the food tech girls. n although there's 2 sweetest girls that I love to work with, there's also 2 nastiest girls that I hate to work with. so let's give it a go anyway. well, for a change. n need to decide on which topic to work on.

nothing much happen for the rest of the day. just went for lunch n juice with Pauline. n then after, tummy feel upset n strange like sth stirring. weak n tired now, dun feel like doing anything. tmr class at 10am, cant be late anymore n gotta print notes before going class. damn. y doesnt John Grigor print it for us. dun like the bloody moodle thing from massey uni web either.

ahh, today Mr M is back from his holiday trip. he's probably home today cos saw him online on msn n fb. but he didnt talk to me at all. doubt he will call me either. what's wrong with him? doesnt he think of me at all or should at least say sth to me? what is this when there's no contact for weeks, and still say we like each other? oh god what should I do with him?! damn damn damn! my patience, understanding, n independence is limiting. It doesnt even matter anymore if he doesnt say "I like u" this 3 words, cos I choose to trust n believe that he does. but this is fading, will it or will it not? saddness, disappointment, angry, r they coming to what I'm feeling? "失望，有时候也是一种幸福，因为有所期待所以才会失望。因为有爱，才会有期待，所以纵使失望，也是一种幸福，虽然这种幸福有点痛。" this is probably what I'm feeling, 痛苦的幸福。