Uni:
for project, tmr to next fri have to be in uni for the whole day for lab testing, including sat n sun..no more wkends..sian.. then sensory have to get it going, hopefully by mid next week..alot of co-ordinating have to be done..so bothersome.. bleh..
fish&chips survey at shop have to be done this wkend too, so tedious to go out n ask pple n the shop owner.. vanilla syrup project alot of sourcing, advice needed, n work to be done too..need to go lab do all the tests, play around with formula, shelf-life testing, etc etc.. also so many emails here n there..didnt even read all, not to mention replying them..ah whatever..

Visa:
the fucking visa thing is so pissing me off n demolished all my moods.. first say my passport expiry soon, so can only get visa done till oct only..means hv to get another visa/permit done after i renew my passport..ok fine.. then now say my medical cert expires, need to go for medical examination.. wth! i've got 1 mth to do it, n dunu where the hell to get it done.. uni work already so busy, still this kinda shit come n bother me.. n say i'm now on electronic interim student permit, like a temp 1..ahh how shit is this..

Brownie:
so many things to handle, decided to put aside for awhile n go bake brownie.. in the end turn "chao da" cos forgot about the time, went do my stuff n left it in the oven too long; so brownie become blackie..lol.. still can eat the crumb.. i'll finish it myself then, n that become my dinner..

Mr M:
btw, actually tue was somewhat happy..hah..what can make me happy leh..mr M. lol..he finally called me liao..oh well, i'm still not hoping for anything, but just leave it as it is.. if he wana talk to me, ok good; if not, whatever too..not gona take anything too seriously..

Activities:
also trying to make it a point that i go pole-dancing once a week, gym once a week, n guzheng class on every sat..havent pay money for my guzheng class yet.. then teacher ask me if i wana teach zhongruan anot.. good thing is can play zhongruan again lar n maybe earn some money.. but then on the other hand, i havent been playing for like 6, 7 years liao (fyi: been playing from 9 to 16 yrs old, about 8 yrs), so rusty liao n not so confident le.. esp i'm not a good teacher (cant really teach well).. n need to get materials too.. also, i'll be leaving next yr, so cant commit long term either..talk to the association in-charge then c how ba.. but it's quite a good news that there's this opportunity.. then driving leh, dunu if i'm gona learn anot.. cos seeing so busy n so many things to fret about, dunu if i will have the energy to learn driving.. i'm such a failure sometime.. everytime so half-heartedly, like 3 minutes hot degree..in sg took basic theory, in nz took my learners (that's theory too); but where's the practical?! actually i fear in driving.. dunu y, like scared "lan ga"..

August:
coming august, i have to start looking for job in nz for my practical work in nov to at least dec, but preferably stretch to march. actually mid oct finish uni liao..ah come to think of it, that's 3mths more of stress n hard work to go..most dreadful 3 mths.. dunu if want the time to pass faster or slower.. if faster, faster to finish n end misery but more rush for work.. oh well, i'm gona be busy n so many things on my head..ahh wana escape from all these but cant..have to face all these shit anyway..so i better not procrastinate so much..
another thing is, wendy is leaving nz, earliest in august..that's quite shocking actually when i first knew she withdrawing from uni..oh well, if she's happier to be back in uk, n that's her choice, go for it then.. i might c her ard in uk sometime next yr or whenever, or wherever..all the best to her then..

Misses:
i miss the independent n matured me in front of my parents; always missing my mum; good sister time with shirley - watching drama throughout the nite tgt, treating her food n hanging out, or even just talking throughout the nite till we fall asleep; bickering, teasing, pranking, n be funny with my second sis, zilei; carrying, feeding, making funny expressions, n playing with baby chloe; just all the family binding time tgt n my favourite "xing hua" food.. of cos missing out the good times with frenz.. my best fren, tony go MIA in seattle, whom i havent seen for about 2yrs; my best fren, eunice recently just went san fran for a mth, but so missing her too even though always c her when i go back spore..hmm been best fren with them for 10yrs already..hah.. well, also missing goodie good fren, the tyl gang - story teller.. hmm.. n the 2yrs+ no c de mr M. been always wanting to c him whenever i go back spore, but always never get to.. cant be sure to say that for next yr.. if ask y i wana c him so much, n y i like him, i dun really know actually.. just will be happy when i think of him.. well, no use missing anyway..need to be back to reality..

Wana:
although i so so so wana pack up my stuff.. sometime i just look at my shelves n wardrobe, just thinking of the things i'm gona bring back, n what else to throw away, give away, or use away.. but i still buy stuffs like books..if only dun have to study, i would so love to read my novels.. i've got about 5 novels for me ready to read.. n have bought wasjig to fix too *hand itchy* then i so wana draw n design dresses.. pauline's mum is a wedding dress designer n maker.. i can so go malaysia to learn from her on how to make dress next yr.. ah~ when's my project runway? lol.. grr..stop stop stop thinking of all these.. enough for this entry.. going for a sleep, n hopefully able to get up later to do some work.. zzz... but now so noisy to sleep.. cos of the windy rain.. :( hmph!