I am so so soooo super stress! What's wrong with me?!
Project:
so worried for my project tmr. gona have about 100 loaves of bread to uni tmr. gona spend 3 hrs every day, testing 10 loaves of bread a day just for this. I'm not sure if the bread trail is gona work out. although have researched n talked thru with sponsor, but I'm still worried. gona do this for about 2 weeks, so no weekends. then not much time to analyse the data. plus now, I can't analyse for my sensory. I hate that minitab thing. n I havent compile all the comments from sensory n so havent told my sponsor about those comments. some really bad feedback about the bread. one of the major issue is having mouldy bread even before the best before date. another is alot consumers find it stales very fast n disappointed with it. I scared that bcos I do this sensory, gona affect the company's sales. I still have alot to do for my report too. just articles, got about 2 big files to read. n also some books too. n so hard to discuss my results, especially DSC dunu if I did the calculation right or not n it's not showing good results too. supposed to hand in the draft about 2 weeks ago de. but I am still writing it, dun think it's halfway yet. grr.. n review meeting is tmr. bad timing. looking at the progress I am at, definitely not gona turn out good.
PD:
Emma n Annie r stressing me out too. they have done their write up for the literature review part n I havent finished mine. I'm almost there cos has been doing this for this whole week. Emma even done her write up for the report liao. n also supposedly I am to present tmr n Emma is gona do it for me. then this Fri gona do the pilot plant for our vanilla syrup. hopefully it will turn out fine n nothing crop up. it's like 5 or 6 hrs in the lab doing this, plus my own project testing of 3 hrs. siao liao. my calendar all packed up, esp for tmr n Fri.

I really dunu how to de-stress myself. cry also no use. nasty weather today to go gym n no time to go town for pole dance either. also makes no sense to talk to anyone either, cos nobody will understand n help to solve the problem. n also everyone has their own problems. I need a bf to help me do all my work. if not part of my work. hahaha. I am so stress, so tired, so so so having headache n so fucking hate u. although it's another 3 weeks more to go, but it's not really the time that matters. it's the amount of work n stress that I am handling. uni work is already so fucked up, not to mention other stuff - visa, job, place to stay, pimples, fats, housework, driving, meals, exercise, dance, music, money, mr M, Chloe's present, ... I miss mummy... what the hell am I doing here?! I am not at all a happy soul. face everything myself, n worry about all these stupid things. wouldn't have to bother about visa or passport issue, dun need to find a place to stay, won't become so fat, don't hv to do housework, dun need to wry about getting ard, can go wherever n whenever I want, wouldnt have to think of what to cook or eat, getting music instrument n score wont be a problem, wouldnt be spending so much money here too cos things more ex here, n wouldnt be missing mr M so much.. ahh for fuck sake... driving me crazy... grrrrrrrrrrr............