不知道为什么 - 我好想哭，但是哭不出来。不知道该从那里说起才好。有时候好烦好烦，快要崩溃了。PD project is pressing by group mates, my Project is due soon but I havent finish my testing + presentation n report, done nth about Quality paper, no news about my visa yet, worrying about not getting a job for the summer n where I will be working n staying at. n the hope for mr M going Batam is probably gone.

Even little things like doing the laundry, exercising, should I go for pole class or gym anot, getting fat, what to pack, should I drive, etc bother me. Was having good mood for past few days; so been cooking, serving dinner n washing the dishes for consecutive 3 days. Ahh..maybe I need some alcohol now. lol.

Anyway, for the Batam trip mr M said he can't commit, n told me that I shouldn't have pinned any hope for that. But instead still suggest places to go. duh. Actually I shouldn't be too disappointed either. cos come to think of it, he said "I love u" and called me "my dear" before, which I haven't said so. hmm.. whatever..

long nite for me tonight.. got alot work to do esp my project sponsor just called just now. extra work now. hmph... n I haven't finished my lit review for PD too.. hai~