• I'm back in Spore already. Feel abit lost n blur. It voice down to whether I like being in SG or NZ or not a place defined yet. Pick up quite a few differences, especially the Singlish accent so strong, SG so bloody hot, polluted n so many pple. But anyway, objectives of the trip met.
• Good news: I'm attached! but wasnt especially especially happy. cos it's kinda half sweet, half sour. cos he is a busy man (even though I m here we've only met once), he is putting career as top priority (which I kinda underst, cos I m abit like that too), n only wana get married until he is 30+ (I will b so old liao). Also, we gona be separated again - long distance rls :( which is gona be really hard. But what to do. Since he wana put his career first, then I shld also ba.. give myself at least 2 yrs time to pave a career n expose myself to the world. Dunu if we'll be able to withstand n stick to this rls.
• Baby Chloe makes me happy. she's so fun, cute n lovable. her bday coming soon. :)
• Gona have a great catch up w family n frenz I supposed - on the way.
• Finally completed my project n course. Well, left one more assignment - on the way doing it too. So cant say 'phew' yet, but getting there. n my practical work too :( which I am trying very hard in job hunting. Got rejected by Fonterra n Cerebos, which is abit kinda pity. But, have been onto looking for jobs and sent out a few more applications. Hoping to have good news, and hopefully attending interviews when I get back NZ.
• Bcos of this job thing, my career pave, Mr M, n Shirley, I am abit kinda confused how I should plan my future. Ideally, another 6 months in NZ to complete my practical work, travel NZ n graduation; then back to SG for awhile to settle things (e.g. Visa/permit, job hunting, flat hunting, etc) for going to UK; then probably like Aug'10 will be in UK working for about 2-3 yrs; then finally back to SG (at 26/27) to set up a business. Or, I can just work in NZ for 2yrs n get my PR, then UK work for 2 yrs, then back SG at 28. Well, so old liao.. Do I wana get married so late ma? But anyway it's still before 30. Dunu lah.. Sometimes I can be strong, independent n like a career-minded woman; but at times, I also dread for a stable, love rls. Dunu how to be both 小女人 n 大女人 leh..
• Another new thing - I've changed my hair style. Not sure if I like it, sometime yes, sometime no. I also dunu how to say.

Anyway, walk 1 step c 1 step. The boat will reach the harbour one day. No use worrying also. But hopefully I will think less of Mr M so I wont be too xin ku, n he should think more of me lor.. hehe..