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Tuesday, February 23, 2010

我喜欢你的霸道，因为你说我是你的人；你不喜欢我，因为你爱我。=)

writtern @8:22 PM

Tuesday, February 16, 2010

my tagboard got error. so can't see what's on my tagboard.

Anyway, been quite a nice weekend. With nice food, though over nutrious, from Pauline's n Dave's mums' cooking. Get to see baby Yu Xuan. Also good catch up with neighbours: Theresa, Darren n Saffie. They r selling their house. So in April, Pauline, Dave n baby gona move out to their new house; Darren n family gona move to Gisborne; and I'm gona go back Singapore. Everyone is leaving. Not sure what's gona happen to Steve.

Anyway, got 2 angbaos from the 2 mums. They r rather hospitable. Last time I used to be afraid of talking to auntie. Well, not really afraid but not good with talking to auntie. But I guess I am alright now. So should be no problem facing the elders le ba, including future in-laws. tsk tsk.

And also went to drop by at Marie's office. Gave her a thank you card n ask her to pass pressie to Kylie for the baby too. Marie said Gong Xi Fa Cai to me, sound abit Cantonese though, not sure. She also gave me 2 hugs. haha.

Also it's CNY, house has lots to say. Sis got so much to say about what's happening. With bro, with all the gu-gus, with what parents thinking n feeling, with the CNY visits, etc. Whatever. I am not there anyway. Well, happy to see Chloe through Skype again. She knows how to wave to me n say hello n bye bye.

As for Mr M., he's not too good - sick. So he has been staying home the whole 3 days of new year. Alamak y he always sick 1, so weak. =x well, at least managed to hear his voice since abt 1 wk ago when my phone is gone, n managed to have a good half an hour talk despite him being sick. So ya, already happy liao.

Well now, back to work :( So much to do. Stupid Arnotts so many requirements. Still got that long questionnaire to answer. And also got HACCP stuff to do. I am beginning to hate all these paper work n facing the computer all day le.

I am gona have an interview from SP with Dr Saw, but not sure when yet. I am really hoping to get the job actually. hehe.. keeping finger-cross. :)

writtern @6:50 PM

Friday, February 12, 2010

soon to be sick i think. vulnerable. =(
lovesick, homesick, literally physical sick.
will tahan till this sun - cny n vday.

writtern @12:28 AM

Bad dream

Wednesday, February 10, 2010

I didnt have a good sleep. Keep waking up in the night n had a very bad dream. Dreamt of running every floor of a building, using all the energy n voice I got, shouting for his name many many times, searching for him. He wasnt in sight, as if he was gone. xin li hen nan shou. I hate that feeling. Wish he is with me right now.

writtern @9:25 AM

Tiring day (Shopping & Dancing)

Tuesday, February 9, 2010

Today is a very tiring day~ Been out the whole day. Did all the baby gifts shopping that's needed. Bought:
1. organic cloth toy + organic cotton full baby suit -> for kylie -> cost: $48
2. colic baby powder + organic cotton booties -> for pauline -> cost: $35
3. 2 hooded towels -> for sis's kids next time -> cost: $50 (b4 discount), $35 (aft 30% discount)
4. thank u card -> for kylie n marie -> cost: $5
Also, went for first hip hop dance class -> cost: $13
then plus food and transport -> cost: $22
so total spent about $160 today liao.. pocket 1 big hole but happy to get gifts for them n get things done. n from all the walking n dancing, my legs super tired n sore...
dancing was quite fun. cool teacher too.. prolly will go next week again.. =)
then boss email me work in the day, but I not home to check mail. sigh~ have to work through things..
then for tmr leh, work + going driving again.. not sure if I shld go for pole dance tmr night.. hmm..

anyway, phone has gone away to my fren's place liao for his mum to use, which will be back end of the mth when his mum go back spore.. so, no talking on the phone for a period of time, esp to mr m. but will be using it coming wkend when I go back over to albany for cny.. plus, mr m's computer is down.. so contact will be lesser n harder.. oh well... shower now n do some work, though very tired le..

writtern @9:49 PM

Enough of Babies & Children

I have had enuf of babies n children! In where I stay, pple ard me, n even in my dreams 4x already.. STOP IT! sigh~ feel a great responsibility. Maybe I mingled too much with pple having babies n kids le, or maybe I feel like having too.

In where I stay: There's a 5 yr old girl, a 2 yr old girl, and in morning wkdays a 1 yr old baby girl. All the crying n shouting that wake me up every morning. I am ok actually, still can sleep.

In pple ard me: Pauline, my ex-flatmate, has a newborn baby. My lecturer, kylie, also haa a newborn baby. My sis's baby Chloe too. That's y need to get baby gifts. Happy for all of them.

In my dreams: This is the worst n most absurb!
- Last time in my blog, I mentioned about dreaming of baby 2x and one of the dream was I'm in labour and giving birth to a baby, the other can't rmb. So interpretation was something new (new start) gona happen in my life, for me to take care of.
- So now, the 3rd time happened just last week where I dreamt of scolding the kids' fucking mothers for not looking after the kids and leave them alone, cos I saw 2 boys were bullying a little girl (about 3 yrs old).
- And now for the 4th time, I dreamt of adopting 2 boys and they were quite big already (about 8 yrs old). If I didnt rmb wrongly, their names were Patrick and Nick. They were not my biological sons but adopted. I feel so great a responsibility to take care of them, busy in and out for them. WTH! I dunu what they mean, might be linked to childhood or something I wana see grow and nurture.

writtern @9:59 AM

Monday, February 8, 2010

good & bad things

bad first:
1. sometimes it's quite sad n 心寒 when ur sisters quarrel esp over 'sesame green bean' n 身外物。毕竟姐妹一场，住在一起的日子也有限；过不久妹妹可能会出国留学，二姐也可能有一天会嫁人。应该好好珍惜这段姐妹情。我觉得一个人只要本性不坏，心地好；致使是只冲动、固执、又脾气暴躁的牛，都可以好好说话的。不见得我跟他们吵架过。妈妈还说等我回去靠我了。sigh~
2. ah gong进医院了。才在去年跌倒两次，而坐轮椅了，所以听到他进医院还蛮担心的。幸好没什么大碍，身体一切安好。很怕他会有事。我跟妹妹都希望ah gong, ah ma都可以看到我们结婚。
3. 新年快到了。今年是我生平第一次在国外，没跟家人一起过年。没有团圆饭，没有new year goodies，没有ba gua，没有热闹的气氛，没有买新年衣。也对自己说，其实也没什么的 - no big deal。但觉得怪怪的。今年的新年又是虎年，也是情人节。嗨~ 算了。
4. 我，已跌入故地了。bank account very very 凄惨。我，也有穷的一天。在四年里(从20岁开始到今)，我失去了自己的20千。一言难竟、后悔莫及，只能怪自己。但过去已过去了，我会打回江山、东山再起。

good now:
家有喜事了！不知道可不可以说，但恭喜恭喜！期待回往家感染喜悦。=)

writtern @11:06 PM

Song: Counting the Days Tonight

Friday, February 5, 2010

You were right

And I don't wanna be here

If your gonna be there

Was that supposed to happen

I'll hold tight

I'll remember to smile

Though it has been a while

And without you does it matter

There's no room

No place to start

When our souls are apart

I wanna travel through time

See your surprise

Hold you so tight

I'm counting down the days tonight

I just wanna be a million miles away from here

I'm counting down the days

How've you been

It's just the usual here

And days are feeling like years

And every day's without you

Now I cry

Just a little too much

When I think of your touch

And everything about you

I feel cold

I'm in the dark

When our souls are apart

I wanna travel through time

See your surprise

Hold you so tight

I'm counting down the days tonight

I just wanna be a million miles away from here

I wanna travel through time

See your surprise

Hold you so tight

I'm counting down the days tonight

I just wanna be a million miles away from here

I'm counting down the days

I'm gonna be your surprise

I'm gonna hold you so tight

Yeah

I wanna travel through time

See your surprise

I'd hold you so tight

I'm counting down the days tonight

I just wanna be a million miles away from here

I wanna travel through time

See your surprise

I'd hold you so tight

I'm counting down the days tonight

I just wanna be a million miles away from here

A million miles away from here

writtern @5:49 PM

Thursday, February 4, 2010

1. Visitor permit approved liao.. so def going back SG ba.. when go back or before going back SG, will job hunting in SG as well as for other countries.. c where's possible..
2. Mummy asked me to 'WAIT'. I'll wait then, c what turns up. if he's the one, he will be the one..
leaving everything to heaven to decide..

writtern @10:12 AM