Thursday, May 13, 2010
Can't imagine it has been 2 months since I last wrote on my blog. Been on the move.
- Finished my short-term job in NZ in March
- Lotsa travelling around most of NZ for like 3 weeks with 2nd sis, little sis n her bf, and little sis n parents
- Graduation on 13 April 2010
- Got my NZ restricted driving license (can drive in NZ by myself), but can't convert to SG driving license cos it's not a full license :(
- Bid farewell with most of my good frenz in NZ for the last 4 days in NZ
- Finally back to SG after 2 yrs 9 mths in NZ
When I got back SG, everyday is real HOT (like sauna) and lotsa changes back in SG with all the buildings n very scary amt of pple in SG. First few days when back SG, went shopping n spent abt $300 on clothes n shoes. After that gotta stop. Local SG food cravings? not so much actually. In fact, I kinda miss Lasagne. How is job hunting going on? Didnt really job hunting either. Shamefully, only sent resume to a handful amt of companies since I'm back. I'm still LL, bumming around, everyday playing mahjong, on fb, and sometime watch drama. Besides that, I've completed a 1000 pieces mosaic puzzle in 5 daytime days; gona modify an old dress; and do some personal research. And yes, pole dancing! went for 2 classes so far already. has been great fun n workout, with pain everytime I go. Although it's more expensive than NZ, but at least the instructor is good, Renee is really nice, friendly, pretty, sexy n experienced. Apart for pole, I'm going back to CO after 8 years of not touching my instrument. Won't take it seriously this time, just play n I'm sure I'll pick it up again. Also, gotta find a Guzheng teacher as well, to continue learning it.
Was once looking at further studying, ideally a Master in UK but then decided not to. It's gona cost another sum of money, will be a waste of time as well, and mum went Guanyin temple to make a divine which turns out to be down down thousand. Well, fair enough, I don't have to and it's not necessary for me to take this route, although parents n mr M r very supportive of me to continue my studies. That period of time, I was really confused of what I should do. Cos, a part of me actually don't really want to stay in SG. Not sure if it's bcos I'm used to staying in SG for a short while n leave after that, I really wana go study, or I wana venture out n c the world. So well, this left me the option of working. But I am not putting any effort in job hunting. Don't know why. I find it a chore n something seem to be stopping me. Maybe I don't really want to step out of the outside world, maybe I am not confident, or maybe I am afraid working in SG. But I will n I have to overcome that. Tmr I'm having a job interview with SPRING Singapore. It's gona be quite stressful, with 3 person of high authority interviewing me. I have no idea what I landed myself into. We'll see as I go. Don't think I will get the job but at least will take it as a practice. But now, I can't find my certs. Only have got degree cert n copies of the rest. Can't find the originals n got no idea where they r. They r last seen 3 years ago. hai~
There's also a big big thing I am worrying about n a little afraid. Bcos I gotta monitor n wait for a few days more then I will be certain of an answer that I'm trying to find out to ease my worries. So keeping this thing in a dark first. I might be thinking too much or worrying for nth too.
Mr M! I don't know what to say about him. I was sad, disappointed, mad n unhappy with him. Just really don't feel like seeing, talking or even texting him for now. But it's not his fault. It was mine. Complicated story. Once I start thinking about what happened or thinking about him, I feel like crying; but everytime I could only cry half a drop of tear. Exasperating!
I was a happy soul in the first 2 weeks when I got back SG, n especially seeing mr M was really happy n the best thing. But right now, I am really not a happy soul. In fact, I'm really very moody. nth goes right. I'm stressing, I'm worrying, and I'm sad. Be it mentally, emotionally or physically, I am not in a right state at all. My advice or warning is, regarding mr M, the big big thing, job thingy n what I wana do with my life, don't ask or question me anything, leave me alone. Other than that, I am ok to have fun with.
