Bad things are:

- Had a big blow emotional. Was all but unnecessary mess. Yes, I was the problem creator. If I never said those stuff on that day, things might not turn out this way. What was I thinking then? But anyway, what'd happened have happened, n now I'm coping well. Not say exactly well, but at least not clinging on or hoping for anything. But still will keep thinking of him, texts occasionally. Well, we're still friends, who still love each other (duh!).

- Worse thing now is, I've been physically down for 5 days thus far. Fever just don't go away. Temperature record:

Sun night - not taken, but it's the worst feeling n woke up at 1, 4 n 7am.

Mon am - 39.1, pm - 38.1, Night - 37.6, see doc 1

Tue am - 39.1, pm - 37.1, Night - 36.8 [I thought I recovered :( ]

Wed am - 38.6, pm - ?, Night - 37.7, see doc 2, spots appear

Thu am - 38.7, prolly seeing doc again for blood test.

I either keep sweating n sweating, or if I'm uncovered in blanket, I'll feel the chill. n I really Stink! Not only the sweat but also my mouth, my breath. hate to swallow pills too. too much! antibiotics, vit c, fever, n inflammation pills. Spots appearing on my limbs n chest. Don't know what kinda virus I've got. keep on fall sick. last 2 weeks just food poisoning ok, then now sick again. this mth is a sickly mth for me =( I wanna get well. I wanna get back to work.

Good things are:

- Pole performance at Groovy Night turns out to be great n fun, n no mishap.

- Going off to London and Frankfurt for holiday soonish in 2 weeks time. But I need to get well first. Hope nth goes wrong.