Saturday, October 30, 2010
Fucking irritating! I can't get to sleep~
bcos I'm too bored. bcos I think too much. bcos I miss him too much.
recently quite a few frenz talked to me about how hurt they were n how their rls didnt work out well. why like that leh. feel sad for them, cos I've been thru the pain before, where someone u really love broke up with u. no matter how long or short the rls is, it's all filled with memories, those moments spent will keep on flashing back, those every single words n sentences said (esp those promises) will keep on repeating over n over thru the back of ur head, n tears will only start to fall when u try to close ur eyes.
I don't wanna go thru this anymore. I don't know how I survived for the past 3 mths after the broke up. all these thoughts, flashbacks, n emotions stab u everyday n night. that is why, I have to keep reminding myself not to be greedy, have to be contented, if not one day I'm afraid I might lose u. bcos I know u don't have the time for me, wouldn't be able to give me much attention, that's y I have to make do with whatever u can give me. I can't ask for more, can't ask for a date, can't expect u to say u love me, can't ask u to be there when I need u (not be greedy); only when u're able to give part of ur time n attention to me, I'll truly treasure it. as long as u love me, that's enough (be contented). I don't want to lose u again. it's hard missing u. but whenever I'm missing u, I'll think of the precious time we spent together n those little words n conversation we had; it will make me believe that I was loved by u n could feel ur presence. I want to rmb every single details.
sian sian sianzzz..... so bored. dunu what to do, dunu do what. -_-
